Dream Catcher

The skies are blue, the clouds make funny shapes
The boy with golden blonde hair lays in the tall grass
dreaming... Someday... One day...
I will be a singer, and join music that makes people's hearts feel joy
Or maybe an actor, an artist, a dancer, that shows the light hearted display of the soul.
Storms come, thunder rolls, but no fear is too large
His protector is near, His Queen with rough hands, soft words
Lost in adventure amoung the weeds
He builds a castle, where there is peace and beauty.
A beautiful girl, a shiny new car, a driveway lined with trees.
A horse to go riding on, a dashing man to share the time with?
A garden of flowers, tulips bloom, the smell of roses.
Suddenly darkness is everywhere...
The protector, his best friend is gone... leaving fear...
blood on the grass... darkness in the water
nights are filled with terror, images burned into repeated motion
Daylight comes, but the smell is gone from the roses
Strong hands have their way, causing pain, but filling some longing
Dark shadows seem to become a comforting place
the rafters of the creaky barn, the moonlight of night.
Fear is a ruler! purpose seems lost.
He spills his own blood on the soil... no one cares
Oh keep him living, Don't let him die!
But the soul sinks to blackness. scratching at the walls of a well
all around life goes on... everything back to staged normalcy
The boy comforts, his touch is electric.. it brings light
Young bodies collide in firelight... magic
like the stars rain down through Dogwood branches.
Love? gut wrenching emotion...
shhh!!! Secrets! no one can know! Turmoil boils...
Will this electricity doom him? send him to Satan?
he begs his maker" take this away!"
Ecstacy ensues... repeatedly. plans...
Future? Dreams? could it be? the protector anew?
NO! dashed... scorned... threats. Buried feelings, like the dead.
Escape... the girl from boyhood dreams... alive?
Hope... reality? a chance at being free from fear?
Love... growing anew. He holds her in his arms...
Wedding Day, So glorious, so profound he shook at the alter
His body giving in to new feelings, excitement
Children~ Angels!! From heaven!! So beautiful...
striking fear in his heart... fear of failing
So emotional in their beauty!
Reality... the dragon roars!!! she spews fire...
Anger, bitterness creeps in... the darkness is a friend again
Tears are present again.. always. failure...
he wonders "why live"...
Devastation... Family repeats old habits, no support...
Going on with life as nothing is wrong...
shattered hearts are not important...
Boldness begins to build in him. something from the soul
a deep yearning to be free... for others to see him!
to be HEARD! Listen! hear my voice! "I am alive"
he speaks his soul, judgment comes. wrath by some.
A growth is happening.. a new day has dawned.
The protector is not gone.. but looking down from above.
Her presence ever near!! Love grows...
New bonds are made... a man appears...
could it be the man from the childhood dreams?
no.. he knows now those don't come true!
But hope is alive... he holds the mans hand
a bond is built... through rough times it lingers
through good times it flourishes. Fear pokes and prods at times
but through serious loss he holds on to this man,this human...
and sees this man grow. Like a flower, bursting into bloom!
the loss is returned four-fold. He ventures to grow..
His mate is unsure, fear springs forward
Eating at the bond like a cancer. He struggles to conquer
But the other man gives in to fear... Devastation...
The Dragon roars.. Fire soars higher than ever.
The heart is cut deeper than before.
All hope of mending...Lost
Darkness crashes like the oceans waves
He seeks shelter in darker places than ever.
There is no reason to spare... why save anythng?
but the protetor is watching.. the soul sees a light
and it cannot ignore that light. it moves toward the light...
growing, learnng, clearing away ruins as it moves forward.
Becomin strong.. learning he is happy, even alone.
Friends who should stand guard, instead laugh, cause pain...
Feeling new and different that ever before...
Parallells are found in another soul like his
much pain lies there... much lack of trust, like him
resistance is the game for a spell.
Finally giving way to a love that is deeper than he's ever known
space, time invoke... responsibilites drag on
for what seems eternity...
But all the while his soul grows to new heights.
Gettin to share adventure for the first time in his life
He eeks out the words to tell of the boy who lay in the grass dreaming
overwhelmed with tears and emotion... Newness...
Fear rears its head... doubts and humanity throw stones in the path
but the Love he now shares seems rooted deeper
Deeper rooted than the winds of time and fear are able to uproot!
Emotions spill over, he appologizes. feels silly...
But the stars report that it is a part of the making...
Those same stars shone on a boy many years ago!!!
Time passes, evolution occurs...
The ugly dragon rears her head... and screams
And makes off with the goods to feed her raging hunger
leaving damage to reckoned with...
A scene like a fire... where he looks and says... Again?
Smoking embers burn the feet.. the stench turns the stomach!
He screams at the four walls!!!
WHEN WILL IT BE MY TURN GOD DAMN IT!!!
MAY THE DRAGON BEAST ROTT IN HELL WITH ALL HER SPOILS!!!
So the mending begins...
Today it seems bleak, like the path is uphill, rocky.
Like a sentence has been served...
"the time till you can move on to your dreams , to your adventures, is this long"
and so he learns... patience...
what? are the Gods trying him? what lesson is to be taken from this?
how can it be made into inspiration? what can he do with this?
the sun sets... but darkness no longer has it's hold...
he curses it! and it leaves!
Each day is his own!!
To Love! To Grow! To Learn....